I fear I won’t want to work again
"I hope you live a life you're proud of, and if you find you're not, I hope you have the strength to start over again."
F. Scott Fitzgerald
I left my job in October of last year. I quit because I hated it. I have been unemployed for the past 3+ months.
The original plan was to spend my time upskilling and building a portfolio so I could get an offer for a "better" job. I have not been doing that. I've been having a hard time finding many employers I'm interested in working for, plus any roles that I think would be more fulfilling.
I know the job market is considered to be pretty poor right now and I'm guessing there are some people out there who share my feelings. I worry about the long term effects of so many young people struggling to build a career and potentially losing trust in the system. I'm actually quite surprised by everyone who still feels inspired enough to go to work every day. But maybe that stems from the need to pay rent rather than any sort of devotion to managers or employers.
I've become a bit cynical about work. I know I'm not alone in that sentiment, actually that's probably the majority opinion. I'm having a really difficult time motivating myself to get back in the workforce. I've had enough money saved up to get me this far. I will probably only go back when that money runs out.
I've decided that when I do go back to work, I'll look for something lower paying with low commitment. I would rather live a humble life on my own terms than a lavish life on someone else's.